tiredness

tired, well, that's a word i heard from my best friend today. she got some trouble with her relationship, and one of them is tiredness. why? she said that she has been tired of being like this, waiting for one year, to be accepted as a couple by his father. i have been in the same way too. waiting just for one person, for 2 years, or maybe 3 years. yeah, i was waiting a person that i love until now, i have already been in relationship again with him. i also waited, and i won't deny that i also tried to love someone else just to forget him. i have tried so much, but in the end, i always came back to love him. i ever felt tired too, same like you. tired to wait, tired to love, and tired to suggest whether he still loved me or not. but i can't take my eyes off him. i can't erase him from my mind. then, i made some conclusion that if we have found someone that suites us, we must be hard to let him go, same like you and me, we have found that person. i know my experience about being tired isn't exactly same like yours, but actually i still understand about your feeling now.

you have been my friend since i was in elementary school, at least i have known your thinking and your feeling a little bit. you also have already told so many things about him to me, and how's your feeling to him, i know you just don't play around with that feeling, i know it's serious. you had ever broken up with him for 2 months, but then you started your relationship again till now. you said that you're tired, but what about your effort to survive with that relationship? is your effort all this time are useless? well, i won't say it useless, but if you just give up and say that you're tired, your effort all this time will be useless and nothing. and also, i know you can't let him go so easily from you. i know you can't be far away from him, i know you need him so much, like i do now. i know you're feeling, it's the same with me. i predict that in the end, you will say that you still can't take your eyes from him, same like i did. well, just a little advice from me, if you can't do, don't pretend like you can do it, because it will hurt yourself, and also himself..

everybody has their own problems, just like you and me. i have my own, and you have yours. maybe this is your and his problem, and you need to solve it slowly. this kind of problem can't be solved quickly, it needs some time. maybe a lot of time, but if you two are really really serious, i know you two can do it, with help from our God also. don't forget to pray to Him, because He always has the best way for us. just be patient, i will support you, encourage you, and cheer you up when you need me, girl, and don't be shy to tell something that irritate your mind, i will be a good listener for you :)