21st of May

yesterday, May 21st 2010.
it's such a great day, i had a graduation ceremony at GKY Greenville. i wore a good-looking 'kebaya', well, although it's so hard for me to walk, but i loved it. i also took some pictures with my friends, had some fun time together, went to salon together.. so many things i have done! i also met him, my boyfriend in formal clothes and took a picture with him. it would be the first picture we took since we were in relationship, but i think it's quite good :) i make that picture as my display picture in my mobile, hehe :) thanks for my friends too, who asked me and him to take a picture :)

in this day, i felt so sad too. because i remembered some bad things again that happened in my past. yeah. this day is my father's birthday, oh well, do you think i should call him 'father'? i won't remember it, but i don't know, my mind always remembers it and reminds me of those memories.
at the middle of the night in 20th May, i cried. cried with no reason, suddenly tears fell down from my eyes. i thought so hard, why i could do that. and i realized that i miss that person so much. i remembered that sweet things he had done for me, i remembered too how he taught me about mathematics which i hate so much, how he promised he would take me wherever i wanted if i got the 1st rank and.. so much things that i couldn't say it one by one.
my head.. felt like it gonna divide into pieces. i wanna scream in the silence, but i couldn't..

yeah. 21st of May, the day i hate so much.. the day i always cry in my heart, in the silence of the darkness..
because of one person, who has made a scar in my heart, and would never be healed..